All By Myself

"All by myself... don't wanna be all by myself..."
As much as I don't wish to think about it, I'm all by myself now, for a week.
Just sent my family to the airport to catch THEIR flight to Ho Chih Minh.
And me? Stoning at home, blogging.

Argh.

大舅妈, 走好...

Funeral's this morning.
Was so tired after my 7.30am shift yesterday.

Went over to the wake straight after work.
Weather was so humid that I decided to go home for a quick wash up before I come back to the wake and so, Roy followed me home too.

Thinking that we're going to play Mahjong and ton for the night, we were more-cheated-than-surprised to find only 2 of my uncles chatting there, with my aunt dozing off next to them.

Despite being so freaking sleepy, I really wanted to stay awake for my aunt since we are sending-her-off in the morning. I ended up going up to my uncle's place, where all the kids are playing and yet, adults sleeping.

Roy and me squeezed into one of the single beds in the room, so comfortable and ready to sleep when my aunt comes squeezing in too, and my cousins complaining no place to sleep. Argh!
None of them dare to sleep in my aunt's room so Roy and me went over instead.

Woke up at 7+am, I went downstair to find both my grandparents just reaching in my uncle's car and waited till almost 9+ when the ritual starts.

My aunt and me share the same name, and the time that she passed away, was the time that I was bornt! Seeing her for the last time before they cover the coffin, the heartaches are inevitable.

Walked with my aunt for a short distance before we board the bus, and was wondering why the distance is so short when I was reminded when I saw my youngest cousin, who's only like 11 and walking under the hot sun in merely socks.

Finally reaching the Mandai Crematorium, "this is it", I thought.
Sending-one-off is definitely the hardest thing.

Don't Go, Will You(All)?

I lost my grandpa(Dad's side) when I was young, at a I-could-hardly-remember-how-he-looked-like age.
But I certainly remember vividly how he was carried away.

Just end of last year, my grandma(Dad's side) passed away due to cancer, too.

Not long after, my secondary school classmate passed away too, due to still-don't-know-what-exactly-happened-to-her.

While attending my grandma's wake, I got to know that this uncle of mine contracted cancer too. He passed away just last month.

Knowing that my aunt has been sick all these while and ever since she moved into the hospice, we kinda expect the worst to come, anytime.
However, expecting it doesnt mean that we could accept it.

I was there at her last moment.
She left peacefully.

The dead might be relieved, its the living who suffer.
No matter how bad things are, time will heal all wounds, all.

Funeral is set on coming Fri's morning.
I need to drink more water for I know myself too well.

R.I.P

After tahan-ing for 6 years, she finally gave in.
I hope she will be happy in heaven.

We'll miss you. Rest in peace.

When you see a star up above the sky shining exceptionally bright, she's smiling at you.
And YOU will be the only one who can see her.

Bunch Of Fools?!

Singapore Arts Festival 2008 Opening!!!
Oh yeah, so my thing.
Met Chaveil at PS at around 4pm to do HER GSS (Great Siao Shopping) before we go have MY lunch-ner at Simply Thai.

Satisfied me after having my favourite Green Curry!


Finally took our FIRST picture together!

Together, we head down to Boat Quay for the opening event - Water Fools, a show brought over from Ilotopie, France.

We didnt expect so many to turn up (which we think they had came for fireworks), we were kinda behind, and even standing on steps, we weren't able to capture much.

Here we are!!!


newWater were given out to audiences for free!

Those performers were so near to the edge that we seriously couldnt see much, except for the 3minutes long of fireworks!!!

So sad that my mobile's camera wasnt good enough to capture those beautiful colours up the sky. But rather, I managed to captured a short clip of them!
Not that bad huh?!



After the crowd starts to disperse, we hung around the field area to kinda chillout, or more like we didnt want to squeeze in the MRT.

The 自恋狂...

After that, we went back to Chaveil's place for her to shower when we then head over to Di's place, to have our Mahjong Session!

Ended at 6am, I really couldn't think properly anymore...
Its just YAWNS~~

So looking forward to the closing, Hydro Sapiens which is happening on the 20th ~ 22nd June!

Common Sense-'less'

I'm depressed.
No, its not a word too harsh to be used, because I'm DEPRESSED!

Things are definitely against me. Everything.
Ever since the common sense issue popped up, more and more common sense-less people are surfacing.

I cant even bring myself to talk about it.

Platonic? Ridiculous!

Finally gotten a chance to watch Made Of Honor.
The show wasnt as fantastic but all men should really watch it!

I have NEVER and will NEVER believe in platonic relationship between a man and woman.

There must be some kind of affinity between the 2 of them to be such close friends, which I believe that being SO CLOSE, they have neglected the possibility of having other feeling for each other, like say love, in this case.

In other way, they are just too afraid that the friend thing might change, and losing each other is the last thing they ever want to happen.

I so wish that the SOMEONE will go watch the show and figure something out.
And ya, I hate Scotland.

Can't-Stop-Laughing?!

Its a HAHA day.
Fetching CHAVEIL (She insists she's no longer MH) from her place, and down we went to Cineleisure for Drillbit Taylor. Bad move.

Were left with the first 3 rows that we had no choice but to wait for the next slot, which is at 7.05pm - another 3 more hours to go...

Went to the 兴旺 cafe to have my lunch, her snack-time where we talked about almost everything that pops into our minds.

She's seriously such an easily amused and influential person.
We were laughing so hard that she spilled MY WATER, and I dropped a plate scaring both the waitress and her.

We spent like at least 2hours in the cafe till we felt some numbness in our beautiful butts, that we decided to go for some shopping to waste time.

Instead, we ended up in the arcade laughing our arses out.

To think again, it has been like almost 20years since Primary school.
Got to know her again through Di just a year ago and today's my first time hanging out with her, just the 2 of us.

Glad that I asked her out.
Now I have a new khaki for movies!

OH YA! The movie..., funny.

特別ないのに 大切だ

Went to watch Accuracy Of Death.
For almost like half of the movie, I thought it was boring.

It just seems like the movie is custom-made for Takeshi Kaneshiro(金城武), with the way he appears with different styles.

If not for the sake that I didnt pay a single cent, I might really regret.
It was $11bucks yesterday, mind you!

Anyway, Takeshi Kaneshiro is so handsome and thanks god for the twist in the later part of the show, that makes the whole movie makes sense!
Kinda heartwarming though.

The movie is kinda funny in the sense that being the Grim Reaper, he didnt had a chance to live as a human, thus not knowing lots of language or terms that human used.

"You are standing, you dont have to pick it up", "No, my nose is not running"... etc

It's rather a meaningful show if you get the point the movie is trying to get to you.
"特別ないのに 大切だ"
Its nothing special for the sun being in the sky, but its important for it to be there.
So true.
Going to catch another movie with MH now.. CIAO!

Possible?

Whats the possibility of having a squash ball STUCKED on top of the side wall in a squash court? Rare huh?
How about the possibility of it happening TWICE?
Ask Gie. She knows best.

By the way,
WHO SAYS SATURDAY NOBODY PLAYS SQUASH???
WHO SAYS NO NEED TO BOOK???
Argh. No kick.

With so many points taken today (Bua buaying, leaving rackets by the door, shaking hands.. etc), we should be able to do better next week right Gie?

Looking forward to the next weekend.

Do I?


So The Very The Stressed!

Its FRIDAY!!!

Given the stress level I'm in, doing Yoga every night doesnt seems to help me much.
So looking forward to the squash session tomorrow and blading on Sunday!!!

P/S:
Bei, when are we going to finally set our arses and get on with our course??
MH, When's our wakeboarding session happening??

Doctor Yap..

Is having nothing to say something to blog about?
I guess not.

Even though I'm being advised to stay indoor, shit still happens.
I broke my favourite mug.

For that moment, I find myself turned into like 10years old?
I stood there for like at least a minute or so before I realise I've to clean up the mess.

I blame it on the medication that despite having the mop in my hand, standing at the door staring at the mess, I'm still not quite sure what should I do in such situation.

Oh and as I was trying to dry the mop for a 2nd round, I kinda spoilt it.
What's shit?

I guess instead of just staying indoor, Doctor Yap should have asked me to stay in bed to stay out of trouble.

Do You Know Me?

The affected could wait but the UN-affected were always urgent.

People are funny.
Its like if they pretend there's hope, there IS hope.
I would just say absence makes the heart grows fonder.

So deceiving.
Smiling is nothing genuinely happy but rather just an arrangement of lips.

I can do that too.
Have been doing that, as a matter of fact.

Unbalanced.

Doctor Yap: "stay indoor, on air-con."
Thats all it takes for Doctor Yap to make me spill out 86bucks to heed his like-I-didnt-know advice.

Doctor Yap also hands me this brochure which is supposed to teach me how to control my asthma, I can't even be bothered.

Given that I'm the last person in the world, or at least among my friends whom anyone would even have any chance to say I'm not taking care of my health, the feeling of being sick every now and then really sucks.

Eversince my trip to Genting, the coughings hit me, again.

Instead of the standard inhaling once in the morning and night, the dose had to be increased to up till almost 4times per day, or more which is rather not very good.

The inhaler provides me only up till 60dosages and it costs me 53bucks!

Now I'm sick, and poor.

Mama's Day Eve!

Though I always believe that I shouldnt just treat my mama well on a specified day like Mother's Day, I cant deny that I really spent alot MORE than normal on this particular day!

To skip the crowd, which I believe most of the people had the same thoughts, we decided to go dinner on Mother's Day eve instead.

My mum is OBVIOUSLY delighted that I meant my word to bring her out for dinner on a Saturday's night, which is supposed to be a I-gotta-be-out-somewhere-enjoying kinda night.

We didnt really go far.
At plaza, we see queues everywhere.
Jack's place, Swensens, HK Cafe and even the foodcourt...

Didnt wait too long before we got ourselves seated in HK Cafe for a quick dinner before we head towards the library and do lil quick shopping.
Bought a pair of OVERpriced shoes for her.
She seems ok with it.

Followed by her favourite place -NTUC.
Walked in with the intention to buy some groceries till we find ourselves a lil too excited over the tag which reads "Green tea @ $1.40"
Typical Singaporean -KIASU, we snatched like 6 bottles of them and to realise that we didnt drive.
Without much choices, we HAVE TO take a cab home instead.
Saving approximately $1.20 from the green teas, we spent $5 on the cab.
失策!!!

Just Not Positive?!

Went out with my not-exactly-ex ex-colleague.
So planned and unplanned.

At the snooker,
"No, that's definitely not going to happen.."
The ball went in.

At the foodcourt,
"No, they are not closing any sooner.."
The lights went out.

What the...
Negative day?!

To David.

Spycam huh?!
LIAR!!!

Still, you've yet to tell me where on earth you got my mobile number from?
Argh.

I'm Fading!!!

The reason why I seldom take picture with my friends with darker complexions is because...

I always seems to be FADING off...

Don't you think so?

Need A Mirror?

Why would people keep complaining about being friend-less and yet rejecting their friends?
I'm so sad.

Why wouldnt people understand the fact that it might be a misunderstanding if merely one commented.
You can still INSIST that they dont know anything about you, if its only 2 of them.

What if the number of people keep increasing?
Its time to do some self reflection.

No Entertainment This Month.

Shit happens and it just HAPPENED!

Was on my way to work when my car broke down just right after a T junction, on a 2 way SINGLE lane.

Just like what Bei said.
I have everything and anything EXCEPT for the triangle signage.
No choice but to keep the hazzard light on.

All vehicles no matter coming straight behind or turning into my lane, have no choice but to pass my car and cross over to the other lane.
Hornings were inevitable, so expectable.

Somehow, I was wondering if they have thought I purposely stopped my car in the middle of nowhere obstructing the traffic, just to make phonecall when they saw me with my handphone, standing by the roadside.

Then comes a cyclist shouting at me.
Look again, CYCLIST.
Not one of a bike, but a BICYCLE!

He shouted if the car belongs to me and I should move the car away.
I was definitely pissed and lost my head that I replied him "if I could, I would! Stupid question."

Then this passerby saw me standing there pathetically being horned by other drivers, he offered to help me push my car to the side.

I must have been too disheartened by the acts of those drivers that this passerby suddenly brightens up, like an angel.

Was directed here and there by the so called service center and waited for another 30minutes before the towing service came to my rescue.

The guy wanted me to take care of the stirling wheel while he tows my car up to his truck.
My reply was "Are you going to get me down later?"
He was definitely amused that I realised how stupid my question was.

After quite a big hoo haa, my car is finally up his truck and he asked, "You might have to go with me to the service center."
I was puzzled by the invitation but I went.

On his truck, he keeps asking me questions.
"Where do you work?"
"What are you working as?"
"Do you want me to drive you to your workplace?"

I starts to doubt the purpose of this invitation thing.
I never heard of in any cases, that I've to go to the service center as well!?!

Anyway, main point is I spent like almost $600 to service my car.
Full Stop.

Sponsor?

I'll be JOBLESS in one month's time.

Anyone wanna support me?

会呼吸的痛

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛 看你的信会痛 连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛 恨不懂你会痛 想见不能见最痛