What Life Should Be...

춤추라, 아무도 바라보고 있지 않은 것처럼.
Dance Like No One Is Watching
사랑하라, 한번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
Love Like You've Never Been Hurt
노래하라, 아무도 듣고 있지 않은것처럼.
Sing Like No One Is listening
일하라, 돈이빌요하지 않은 것처럼.
Work Like You Don't Need The Money
살라, 오늘이 마지막 날인 것처럼.
Live Life Everyday As If It Were Your Last

"Bus Stop"...


*Here I'm back at the "Bus Stop" once again.

Today I had sudden urge of catching a glimpse of Stam, so I decided to make a visit to the "Bus Stop" again. * Yeah, again...* Right after work, I took a bus over.

On the way, the thought of getting off the bus and turn back flooded my mind, but my body doesnt seems to be reacting to any of those thoughts.

Upon reaching, I can see that the lights are off at his workplace. I was disappointed yet relieved to know that he's not there. I picked up all the courage that I have to walk over slowly back to the place, where we had all of our best and memorable memories. Every steps were heavy and not easy. It gets harder every step closer. Everything came back.

It has been 4 months since I last came. Things changed but the feelings remained. First thing first, the chair outside. I used to sit there watching my working baobei while waiting for him to knock off. I'm so in love with his seriousness and attitude that he possessed while working. Just like the song, I just can't take my eyes off him.

Just as I walked alittle bit closer, his bike slowly came into my vision. I hesistated. Knowing that he wouldnt go home without his bike, I guess that he should be somewhere near. "Maybe he went out for dinner with his boss?", "His bike is spoilt, leaving him the choice of leaving it behind?" I started asking myself tons and tons of questions. I slowly peeped in and the only thing I saw is darkness, reconfirming his absence. Thinking that he might come back anytime and not wanting to let him see me, I decided to wait at the "Bus Stop".


*Views taken from the "Bus Stop" opposite his workplace.

Waited for not more than 5 minutes, I started convincing myself that maybe he wont be back that soon, or maybe I could just go back for awhile? All the "maybe-ssss" just keep coming in.

After some strugglings, I'm back. I slowly walk towards his bike which is parked behind the locked gate. I stared at the bike and tears came rolling down. We had all kinds of memories with his bike, all the happy and sad ones. In fact, I have been regretting for not taking pictures of his bike and most importantly, with him. Therefore, I feel strongly that I should grab the opportunity of doing it now. I took out my phone and started snapping.


*Really wanted to take better pictures but these're the best I could get given the conditions there. I mean I dont want to get caught climbing into some other's property, just because I wanted to take some pictures of the bike and updating them into my blog! I don't think any police will buy that...

After a few satisfied shots, I walked to the back where we had our very first "Candlelight dinner", which he had thoughtfully prepared for me with weeks of preparations. I started recalling that day when I walked in, towards a route with twinkling lights, red wine and dinner, all prepared by him. Indeed, that's not a very ideal place for such romantic event, but the atmosphere he created for me is definitely unreplaceable by anything, anyone. Tears again.

So afraid to be spotted by the uncle outside the kiosk, I started telling myself that I can't stay here any longer, I gotta leave. Seriously, its difficult for me to walk in in the beginning, but its nothing to compare with what it takes to convince myself to walk out of that place, with the thought knowing that I might not have a chance like today again.

Back at the "Bus Stop", I waited for another 3 hours before I decided to give up. During the wait, I smsed him asking if he's free to talk to me. As expected, there's no reply. Just right before I hail a cab, I decided to call him. My heartbeat accelerated as the ringing goes and as usual, I was led to the voicemail.

"Alright", I told myself. Got into a cab and went home.

Back at home, I repeatedly looked at the pictures I took earlier. I couldnt sleep, neither could I stop tearing. I know I've to be strong and get over my "low tides". I told myself I must not cry, I can't cry and I shouldn't cry! There's nothin worst than losing your loved ones and thats how I managed to convince myself that "at least he's still alive and healthy."

Still, I cried myself to sleep.


*The first and only picture we took together, 11months ago...

P/S: 宝贝,我好想你...

*Wondering what about "Bus Stop"? Refer to HERE for previous post.

Cuppage PartyWorld



It has been quite awhile since we last went out man. Everyone has been busy, especially ME la.. Though "NO ENOUGH TIME", but that doesnt stop us from trying our best to meetup for some chillouts..

So ONE FINE DAY, someone mentioned that SQ has got some voucher thingy whereby we can go singing in Partyworld with 4 hours free, and all we need to pay are the expenses on drinks!
So, we went.

4 hours = 240 mins = 14400 secs = Not more than 80 songs?
I doubt that we even sang more than 50 songs. Despite that, the entire session was great! But, there're even greater events more worthwhile to be published on my great blog.

Case 1
Our friend Jess who came so late and ended up just enough time to join us for dinner and went off to work.
*We appreciate the effort taken though.

Case 2
Washroom visit discovering "bomb" which forced us to leave behind the "cannot tahan anymore" girl.
*A round of applause for Gie, the "cannot tahan anymore" and "don't care" girl.

Case 3
Heard tragic scream secs after stepping into the lift. Turned over and saw empty lift with only me and Wei, who's standing at the "already closed" door with her finger almost touching the "Open" button.
*I swear I'm the first to step into the lift and thus, there's nothing for me to do IN TIME!

Case 4
Some sotong claims that she left her UOB card on the KTV couch.
*We headed back and found nothing.

Happy times just don't last. That 4 hours just passed without us even realising.

P/S: I forgot to take picture with SQ and Wei! *faints*

Horoscope


"Healthy ambition doesn't just apply to careers. Aim high in your relationships, too."

*Thanks, what a thing to say...

Grand Opening


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