Why Arent You The One?

I miss Jeff so much.
He should be having fun in Bangkok now.

I never believe in any god.
If God ever exists, he must be my Godsent guardian angel.
Whenever I'm down, he'll always be there for me.

No doubt I find him so irritating when he always give me all kinds of nonsenses when all I wanted is for him to listen.

And whenever I starts to whine about him not listening, he would say "at least you're smiling now, aren't you?"

He's one who truely cares.
He's one I'll never want to let go.

He's such a nice person but...

Why? Why am I not in love with you.
My heart will be less painful if the one I love is you.