"我会不会死掉？"

Yesterday, a seriously bad day.
Woke up at around 11am, aimlessly.

As usual, I on my computer, checked friendster then back to blogging...

Sometime near evening, a friend called.
GF: "小云啊，你看过那部刘德华演的<<再说一次我爱你>>吗？"
Me: "还没有，做什么呢？"
GF: "你应该看, 我在戏里看到你了!
Me: "什么意思？ 谁？ 杨彩妮还是蔡卓妍？不会是刘德华吧？
GF: "3个都是!"

At this point of time, I have seriously no freaking idea what she's talking about.
But to think back, many friends who know me have once told me the same thing as well!!!
So I decided to watch the show.

As a matter of fact, I merely watched the 1st disc and I gave up.
I couldnt bring myself to finish the show. I just can't.
Indeed, I saw myself in all the 3 casts.
I kept tearing throughout.

I was down since then, adding onto what happened lately, I'm DEPRESSED!

Since my counsellor is out of town, I know I have to talk to someone.
I thought of him.

It was around 12+am when he called.
Immediately, I got changed and head towards the carpark.

Guess what? Shit really happens!
I couldnt start my car!

I called another friend of mine asking him for help.
Instead of solving my car's problem, he solved MY problem by driving me to my destination.
*Brother, thanks alot for your help man! Anyway, you reminded me that I shouldnt drive if I'm going to drink.. Yeah! DRINK, DON'T DRIVE! Roger!

Reaching his place at 1+am.
Its obvious that only beers are left on the sellable shelves at that time.
So I asked for something that can kill me in the shortest time!
I was given a glass of something which looks like Martell/XO or something hard.
*I swear it didnt smell like any of them...

I was told to bottoms up which I obviously cant.
Merely down with half of that, I'm gone already.

Then its bedtime.

I can slowly feel the kick coming in and my head seems to be cracking any minute!
It was so painful that I started crying...
To add on, my asthma joined in.

Man, before I say what I said, I really gotta say sorry to my bitch, MJ.

Similarly, I asked the silly question;
"我会不会死掉？"

I'm so so so sorry that I bothered him the entire night!
Everything was so messy before he forced a pill down my throat, tied my hands and legs in place, just to get me to sleep.
*Hey friend, I'm really glad to have you as my friend, who never fails to be there whenever I needed you..

Sounds exaggerating? Its true...