2004.07.04

I should be at work now and I'm not.

Simply because today is 4th of July, an unforgettable date.

2004.07.04, the date engraved on my rings.

Time files, things happen, everything is changing.
Or at least our relationship changed.

I know I should be getting over.
I know I should be letting go.
I know I should be ok with it.
I know I should be...

It has been 9 months and 2 days.
I've no idea how long its going to be like this.

Seriously, I'm really tired but I just couldnt do much.
I swear I tried my best and still trying each and every single day.

Our last sms exchange was 24th May. No more eversince.
I struggled to not send any, and neither did he send any to me.

From time to time, I misses him.
Every now and then, I 'sees' him.
I hates to go out.
I don't know what will happen if I were to bump into him out there.
Obviously, I dont think I can take the blow, again.

I'm in pain, so unbearable.
Its bleeding in there. I cried the whole night.
All I wish for is someone who can be there to love and care about me.

Someone, where are you?