"你还爱我吗?"

夜里传来雨的声音 轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

Raining days are those days which I loved most.
On most rainy days, he doesnt have to work which means I get to see him.
But, I hate rainy days now. It hurts...

爱情需要一些呼吸 偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

He doesnt like to be tied down. He wishes to have more of his own time.
He gave in to me all the time. He understands me. He loves me more than I do.
Yet, I never bother about how he feels.
Now we're more like 'used to be very close' strangers.

"你还爱我吗?" 一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
"你还爱我吗?" 为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎 你爱我吗

I have doubts toward him which he had yet to answer me to date.
I'm curious and afraid at the same time.
I'm struggling inside.

好久没有你的消息 心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音

We have not met since 10th Sept'05.
We have not been happy since 2nd Oct'05.
We have not talked since 26th Feb'06.

感情的路总让人好无助 我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

He certainly changed me.
I learnt to handle things myself.
I learnt to be independent.
I learnt to be a loner.
I learnt to put on a strong front.

这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你 你还爱我吗?

I'll wait...

43days ago, I told myself to really get over.
I made a pact with myself not to call him or even sms him.
I promised, I did.

Just when I thought I was doing well, I heard the song 'It must've been love'.
Everything went back to day 1.

I couldnt get to sleep everynight.
In the end, I did fall asleep - I cried to sleep.

Lately, I've been taking bus instead.
I cried my way home.

I'm suffering from depression. I think I am.
I'm getting over-sensitive over almost every single thing.
I've been temperamental.
I gets worked up easily.
I cried like nobody's looking.
I hate myself so much.
I sees myself a failure.
I sees myself a hindrance to everything.

I'm tired.
I think I hallucinates...
And, I imagines...

Practically, everywhere, everytime, everyone and everything reminds me of him.
I don't know is it coincident or is it truely at least 60% of riders, are riding a bike of the same model as him?
I'm not sure if it has been all the while like that or is it a trend now, to wear that white/black top which he always wear.
I try to tell myself not to think so much.
Then, I starts seeing things...

That day at Taka, I thought I saw him. I cried.
That day at the road junction, I thought I saw him. I cried.
That day at West Coast, I thought I saw him. I cried.
That day while having night shift, I thought I heard my phone rang. It didnt.
That day I thought he replied to my message of birthday greeting to him. He didn't.
All the 'That Day'... In fact, its 'That Dayssssssssssssssssssssssssss'...

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