Are You Really Getting Over?

Its late already but still, I can't get to sleep. Been thinkin' how is he doin'...

Without realising, it has been almost a month since we last talked or even sms. I don't know what status are we at now. Obviously, we're not an item anymore, but neither are we stranger.

Have been considering lately of really get over it. The only way to do so, is to take back my stuffs from him and return all his stuffs back to him. It has been 5 months since we made that decision and yet, none of us mentioned about our stuffs.

Whenever we were to talk on the phone, its alway "how's life?" kinda conversation. There was once when I mentioned to him, "我的东西，你先帮我收着". His reply was "好，慢慢来，不急." Then we'll both avoid that question again.

Till now, I'm still wearing the watch he gave me on my birthday last year, and he's still wearing the jacket I bought for him as well. In fact, I hate watches. He is the reason why I never fail to wear my watch every single day. On the other hand, I know that he's still wearing the jacket despite that he hates jacket as well. Don't ask me why I know, I just simply know.

How I wish I could have magic power or rather, the power to hypnotise him from a distance away for just 1 minute, so that I can find out what the hell is he thinking. If he's really getting over it or even coping it well, he wouldn't have called me once in almost every month saying that he called to listen to my voice! Its hurting me. If none of us can handle the trauma, why did we suggest it?

To date, I have not really figure out what went wrong. He just refused to tell me anything. Previously when I suggested to bring his stuffs over to his workplace, he got so worked up! He said nasty words, threathening sentences just to stop me from going over. After that, I kinda asked him why. He replied that he's not mentally prepared to see me and he's afraid that he'll give in again. What does that sounds to you?

I guess I'll be so tired one day and giving him up eventually, but the thought of doing so is just simply unbearable. I'll still wait, to the day I meet another person who's willing to replace my watch, and unlock my heart.


宝贝，你真的放得下吗？

I read in a book quite awhile ago saying that the time needed to recover from a broken relationship, is in fact half of the period when you're together. We were together for 471 days, which means I need 235.5 days which is rougly 7months, to get over. We brokeup at Oct last year, meaning I will only get over on May or perhap June this year. Seems fast yet long way ahead. *Don't be silly, I don't believe in that! Faints...

P/S: He's really constantly reminding me at times that he's still there... It hurts...